Giving Up? [Male/Mature/One person needed]

Two Years Ago...

Sammie lounged in the chair in her counselor's office, everyone said she needed help to get off the drugs and to stop cutting herself. But they didn't get it, they didn't get the pain she felt everyday, what she did was a way she could help herself calm down.

But they all thought she did it for the attention. "Sammie, we all have decided to send you to a special camp where there aren't any drugs or anything you can cut yourself with. This place will help you get better, there are other people there that are just like you" her counselor said slowly. Turning her head around to look at him she rolled her eyes, she had no choice on the matter, they needed her room for other people making a nod of her head she walked out of the counselor's office and packed all of her things.

What they didn't know was she had drugs in her pockets and a small blade aswell.

-Present-

Sammie sat staring out of the bus window, there was one counselor on the bus with them all. Everyone was being loud and being stuck on a bus going to a place she didn't want to be made her itch for the drugs, she hadn't really stopped them even when she was in the hospital she had always gotten them in some way.

She knew she would start suffering withdraweral symptons soon.

After a while the bus stopped and they all climed out, slinging her back pack over her left shoulder she looked at all of the counselor's that were there. Four women and five men. After a moment they were all put into groups and she was placed with one of the guys, sitting down in a circle near her cabin that she was to share with a few other girls she wrapped her arms around her back pack, she hadn't let anyone take it from her because it had more of her drugs in it.

As the girls in the circle chatted one at the time about why they were there when it came to Sammie's turn she looked at the ground and traced patterens in the dirt "Pass" she said softly.

[Ooc: Guy needed to be the counselor, he has to be understanding but persistant. Yeah other then that dont ask to join just jump on it]

Saixis, or as he usually went by, Sax, was usually a rather cheerful guy, but even he felt a bit depressed as he looked around at the girls in the circle. They all had their problems, some worse than others, but they had one thing in common. They were seen as being 'problems'. As being 'too difficult to fix'. He hated that. They were sent here because the people who sent them got tired of dealing with them, or needed them out of the way. It was wrong, in his eyes. If you were not persistant, you'd get nowhere.

He listened to each of the girls talk about their problems, nodding softly every so often when they touched on certain points that he'd expected, or heard before. And then, "Sammie, what about you? Care to tell us why you are here?" Her answer, while not unexpected, made his frown deepen. She seemed a bit more withdrawn than the other girls, or perhaps just more stubborn. And he for some reason had a bad feeling about that backpack.

He sighed softly, and leaned forward a bit. "Sammie, is it really so difficult to just tell why you are here? I'm not asking for your life story, just a little bit of why you were sent here. I don't really have any intention of letting you just 'Pass' as you put it. It's not exactly fair to the others who spoke."



(Let me know if you want him to be a normal human in this thread, instead of a demi-god like he usually is.)

Sammie looked up at him her arms wrapping back around her back pack her chin resting on it also as she glanced at the others and then at Sax. Sighing she gave a shrug "Why should I?" she asked rolling her eyes boredly.

A few girls shot her glares wanting her to talk about her problems, sighing again she ducked her head slightly lower "Drugs...." she said softly leaving out her many sucide attempts, running a hand through her hair she dropped it back to her back pack and held onto it tightly not wanting someone to take it from her.

"I...I need to go to the bathroom" Sammie said hurriedly, getting to her feet she dusted herself off after she put her back pack over her left shoulder. Walking into the cabin she let the door close behind herself as she walked into the bathroom and locked the door, placing her bag on the sink she pulled the drugs out of her pocket and opened the small packet.

Tipping one tablet into her hand she put it into her mouth, she had been craving them while she had been sitting in the circle. Putting her back to the sink she slid down to the floor her knees raised enough that she could hook her arms around her legs and rest her head on her knees.

Hearing someone outside knocking on the door she sighed "Go away" she called softly the drugs kicking in quickly making her words slur as she thought about grabbing her balde from her pocket. Making her mind up she pulled it out and traced her fingers along the edge before she placed it against her left wrist feeling the cold metal she sighed slightly and leaned her head back against the cupboard as she hesataited before she slipped the blade back into her pocket.

Sammie got to her feet with a sigh "Just leave me alone" she slurred, turning around she looked in the mirror as she picked up her packet of drugs and put it into her pocket with her blade. Turning on the water she splashed it on her face trying to make herself seem less drugged up.

Going to grab her bag she knocked it off the sink and cursed, "No! Don't come in!" she called souning frantic, making sure her bag was zipped up she moved to the door and leaned against it putting all of her weight aganist it her hand holding onto the handel "I-I'll be out in a sec" she lied trying to stop her words from slurring as much as they were.

Clenching her eyes shut Sammie sighed and stepped away from the door, her head bowed letting her hair obsucre her vision hiding most of her face from view, "Fine" she said softly and sat down on the floor leaning against her back pack.

"Don't get anyone" she whispered softly her head still bowed as she wrapped her arms around her legs making sure to keep the bag out of his reach, she didn't want to be here talking with him. It was easier at the hospital they didn't bother her as long as she didn't harm herself.

Putting a hand in her hair she shook slightly, but not from fear rather from the drugs. Taking her hand from her hair she grabbed her bag and wrapped her arms around it as she moved and leaned more against the cupboards.

Sammie glanced at him slightly and buried her face into her bag and shook her head "No" she lied her voice muffeled slightly but her slurred words were still obvious. Sitting up slightly straighter she placed the bag on the floor beside her away from him, unzipping it she pulled out her hoddie and quickly zipped it back up before she pulled her hoddie on hiding away the thin scares that linned her writsts.

"Just leave me alone....I don't need help....There's nothing wrong with me" she slurred letting her eyes close as she placed her head back agianst the cupboards and turned her head away from him as she sluggishly pulled her bag back into her lap and she held onto it tightly opening her eyes she couldn't focus on anything so she kept looking around and bit on her bottom lip to stop herself pulling the packets out of the pockets on her jeans in front of him.

Sammie turned her head and looked at him her eyes glazed over, giving a sigh she shrugged her shoulders slightly "I guess" she mumbeled before she started crying. Pulling her sleeves down over her hands more she rubbed at her eyes smudging the small ammount of mascara and eyeliner she was wearing.

"C-Can you go please? I-I just want to be alone for a sec..." she sniffeled before she buried her face into her bag locking her arms around it again, she felt sad and empty. Taking a shaky breath she cotinued to snif slightly as she let her hair fall over her arms, feeling safe when she couldn't see him at all as she blocked out everything.

After a moment she felt more relaxed, giving a small smile she let her eye close before she ran a hand through her hair shifting it away from her face once again.

Looking up Sammie noted he was out of the bathroom but knew he was just outside so she couldn't do anything else, sighing she got clumsily to her feet. Leaning heavily against the counter she turned the water on again and splashed some more on her face and on her neck.

Rubbing her mascara and eyeliner off she didn't bother putting any more on, bending down she picked up her bag. Moving towards the door she thought about the last time she had seen her Mother and her Mum's boyfriend, shaking her head slightly she pulled open the door and glanced at Sax her face blank of any expression.

Tossing her bag onto the bed closest to the bathroom she crossed her arm's lightly over her stomach and stared at the floor. Hearing someone calling everyone to the food hall she turned around and walked slowly out of the cabin, not feeling hungry she loved the drugs for that. Seeing a few girls from her cabin looking at her oddly she stared back at them as she walked into the food hall. Grabbing a drink of water she walked to a table away from everyone else and sat down at it placing the glass of water in front of her a few people sat down with her and tried talking to her but gave up after she looked away from them seeming interested in the wall beside her.

Sammie gave a groan of annoyance as soon as she saw Sax, putting her face in her hands she lounged back in the chair she placed her arms on the table and started sliding the glass of water from hand to hand not saying anything for a moment until she glanced at him.

"Because your egoistic maniac who thinks there is stuff in there that shouldn't be there when there is nothing in my backpack apart from clothes" she stated smirking, getting to her feet she walked up to the table that had all of the food she grabbed mini muffin. Walking back to the table she sat down again looking annoyed as she picked up at the muffin eating small bits of it.

"Am I right?" she growled out refering to her comment she had made, not looking at him she focused on her muffin as she lounged in the chair agian.

Looking at him she kept her face blank as she looked at the scares on his arm, leaning forwards she placed the muffin off to the side, placing her elbows on the table she put her hands over her face "I hope you like dissapointment...And DON'T talk to me like I'm an idiot" Sammie mumbeled. Taking her hands from her face she looked at him levelly.

"I only ever went to a shrink once and didn't go again he spoke down to me so I slapped him....And there is nothing in my pockets" she lied as she looked away from him her face going blank again as she used her hands to prop her head up.

Picking up her water she downed it and kicked her feet up onto the chair beside her, her back pressed agianst the wall as she pulled her hood up tempting to ignore him but knew she couldn't ignore him forever.

Rolling her eyes Sammie turned her head to look at him with a raised eyebrow "Why don't you just become a shrink? You could bore someone into telling you the truth...I lie because it is easier then telling the truth" she said simply, streaching slightly she stood up. Picking up her glass she walked away from him.

Getting another drink she didn't go back to the table instead downed the drink standing up and walked out of the food hall, looking around she saw a few other people where messing around outside and getting to know each other. Walking back to her cabin she walked inside and flopped down on her bed, pulling her backpack to her she pulled the packets of drugs out of her pockets and put them into her bag leaving the blade in her pocket.

Staring at the ceiling she looked at a few of the girls who walked in to grab a few things from their bags, looking back at the ceiling she listened as they left. Sitting up she leaned against her pillow hopping her personalised stalker wouldn't follow her.

Sammie gave a squeak of terror as soon she heard him talk, watching him she rubbed her eyes "Right now you seem the greater of the two evils" she muttered. Getting comfy she watched him as she raised her legs up slightly getting comfortable "A stubborn ass is right" she sighed.

She shrugging slightly she looked away from him "I don't really have a choice in talking to you seeing as you seem to walk to stalk me everywhere" she stated, shrugging her shoulders she ran her hands through her hair "Fine what do you want to know?" she grumbeled crossing her arms over her chest still not bothering to look at him as she put her bag onto the floor beside the bed.

Raising an eyebrow she shrugged slightly as she looked at him "Whatever I can get my hands on really so thats a large variety" she said, rolling her eyes she gave another shrug of her shoulders "Why do you want to help nut jobs like us?" she asked.

She had been called a nut job by a lot of the doctors she had seen and also by her Mother, leaning over the edge of the bed she unzipped her bag and pulled out a hair tie. Not bothering to zip it back up she tied her hair up and crossed her arms back over her chest looking at him blankly.

"I dunno...Some....Pills that I got from a friend when I was in the hospital" Sammie said shrugging, hearing him telling her not to call herself a nut job she laughed and shook her head "No thats my Mother's stupid boyfriend, his a nut job" she muttered rolling her eyes skyward.

"Why are you being my personal stalker?" she asked with a smirk as she tucked her hair away from her face as she pushed back into her pillows as she started playing with the hem of her hoddie.